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The Truth: An Emotional Affair with The Narcissist Part 1-5

The story I am about to share is true. Although not everyone will accept it.

Part One: Searching for Answers.

Part Two: The Things He Said.

Part Three: Ensnared.

Part Four: The Discard

Part Five: Letting Go

Part Six: A Picture is Worth a Thousand Words

And you will know the Truth, and the Truth will set you free. John 8:32

Part One: Searching for Answers.

How it all began. I had been ghosted by a guy and I didn’t understand that kind of behavior. I needed answers and closure. 

So I went looking for answers and stumble upon a mysterious man.

The mystery man is a well-known Sociopath/Narcissist skilled in casting spells. I mean skilled in teaching others about narcissism.

I reached out to him for help unaware at the time what exactly a narcissist was. I was in the beginning stages of learning and seeking answers.

I reached out to him the (Mystery Man) many times over a two year period. I cannot share about the details of what we spoke about because that is confidential. I told him all of my weakness and vulnerabilities. I read his books and followed his social media.

Little did I know I would soon be seduced and ensnared by the world’s greatest narcissist.

 

Part Two: The Things He Said.

 Oh, the things he said. Those magical words. So enticing and hypnotic.

Look into my eyes…
Abracadabra!
Bibbidi-Bobbidi-Boo!
Hocus Pocus!

No one ever spoke to me the way he did.

He would say things like ” you are very beautiful, absolutely stunning, absolutely sensational, most alluring, a truly enchanting lady.”

I knew it was wrong. But it felt so good to hear those things.

 

Part Three: Ensnared.

The spell was complete. I was ensnared.

The emotional affair begins. The unexpected missed calls on Skype. The flirting. I sent pictures and videos to please him. He approved.

Because of the things he said, I was under the impression that he wanted to be in a relationship with me. I believed that I was special to him and that he would never hurt me. So I went out and purchased my passport.

The next time we spoke he mentioned the places he would take me and the things he would do to me sexually. So I undressed for him on Skype.

I waited patiently for him to tell me when that special day would happen.

Then suddenly…Just like that, I was discarded.

 Part Four: The Discard

“Every addiction starts with pain and ends with pain.” -Eckhart Tolle

One moment I was the one. Then suddenly just like that all of this came to an end. He announced on his social media that he found the one he would be with forever.

This, of course, left me perplexed and heartbroken. Was this all a game? Did he use me? Why did he choose her and not me? What happened? What changed?

I tried to convince myself that I could still benefit from his social media or the services he offers. But it is just too triggering.

I was stuck unable to move forward. I tried to stay busy. I went out and tried new things, but this was just a distraction. I wasn’t making progress. I realize now that I was just killing time and not working on myself.

I finally accepted that I will never have a relationship with him. He is happy with his new supply and it is time for me to let go completely and move forward with my life. It was time to go No Contact.

Part Five: Letting Go

“All endings are beginnings. We just don’t know it at the time…” (Mitch Albom).

Letting go was difficult, but I knew I needed to do it in order to move forward.

At that moment it felt like the most difficult decision I had ever made. I needed to block him for my own personal well being. I started with my Instagram account and then I cried. That was all I could handle that day.

I found out later that I had what is called a trauma bond. At the time it didn’t make sense to me why I would still want someone who rejected me.

I have accepted responsibility for my part in this situation. I know my choices hurt others along the way. I made a mistake when I engaged in that behavior with him and I learned my lesson. I realized that I was seeking validation from him when I should have looked inside of myself. As the parable below from Eckhart Tolle’s, The Power of Now, explains…

A beggar had been sitting by the side of the road for over thirty years. One day a stranger walked by. “Spare some change?” mumbled the beggar, mechanically holding out his old baseball cap.

“I have nothing to give you,” said the stranger. Then he asked: “What’s that you are sitting on?” “Nothing,” replied the beggar. “Just an old box. I have been sitting on it for as long as I can remember.” “Ever looked inside?” asked the stranger.

“No,” said the beggar. “What’s the point? There’s nothing in there.” “Have a look inside,” insisted the stranger. The beggar managed to pry open the lid. With astonishment, disbelief, and elation, he saw that the box was filled with gold.

I am that stranger who has nothing to give you and who is telling you to look inside. Not inside any box, as in the parable, but somewhere even closer inside: inside yourself.

“But I am not a beggar,” I can hear you say.

Those who have not found their true wealth, which is the radiant joy of Being and the deep, unshakable peace that comes with it, are beggars, even if they have great material wealth. They are looking outside for scraps of pleasure or fulfillment, for validation, security, or love, while they have a treasure within that not only includes all those thing but is infinitely greater than anything the world can offer.

–Eckhart Tolle

 

Since then I started focusing on me. I started working on mindfulness, self-care, inner child work, and meditation.

I am making progress and it feels so good.

I feel at peace.

 Related posts:

Part Six: A Picture is Worth a Thousand Words

White Knight: The Things He Said

Not My Fault You Started It

Permission Denied: Closure Granted

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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How To Increase Your Views Using A WordPress Stalker

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Have you ever wondered how to increase your views without posting anything new?

Well, this is how I did it.

1. Write a blog post about an affair with a narcissist sociopath. See the following example: The Truth: An Emotional Affair with The Narcissist Part 1-5. This can be a work of fiction or you can actually go out and find a narcissist sociopath and have an emotional affair.

2. Don’t name any names. Narcissists always think everything is about them. So you may gain several narcissists thinking you are talking about them.

3. Some people will share your story on their social media and call out the narcissist by name. Even though you were extra careful not to name drop. Hello, Mr. Narc, your victim is over there talking about you.

4. If you want to make the stalker squirm follow up with some additional posts just to poke at it any of the following would be appropriate:

Part Six: A Picture is Worth a Thousand Words

Dear Stalker

Coming soon: Dirty Little Secrets Exposed

Not My Fault You Started It

Chasing the Narcissist

White Knight: The Things He Said

Permission Denied: Closure Granted

5. Then just sit back and watch the views comes in.

6. I changed my URL twice and all this does is slow the stalker down temporary. It manages to find a way back.

7. I even tested my findings by creating a dummy account where I reblogged my original post and sure enough the stalker took the bait and started stalking that account as well.

I received over 1000 views since mid-July just from this one stalker. Over 1000 views, I love my number one fan, I mean stalker.

Unfortunately, the topic/story of interest has come to an end as I have already posted the final chapter and soon the stalker will grow weary and boredom will strike. And the stalker will slide into the #2 spot and eventually it will slink away and my numbers will dwindle back down.

The good news is that the only views that really count are the views from my real followers.

However, I have to admit that I found it very amusing.

The screenshot below shows how many views for the month of September from this one stalker.

My stalker can be your stalker if you follow the easy steps above. Act now this is a limited time offer.

Results may vary.

Permission Denied: Closure Granted

I requested permission to speak about my situation and was denied so I asked for closure instead.

I wanted to know why he chose her? What changed? And was it all a game?

I am not in a position to grant permission.

No, there was no game playing.-unknown

It wasn’t a game.

It is a fluid situation. Therefore you were a consideration, then other factors overtook that.

Without wishing to be unkind, imagine you are looking for a house and you see one which you wish to buy, you start to make preparations for it, but then you may see a different house which is better suits your needs OR you have a windfall so you have more money available to buy something larger OR you lose your job so you have to put matters on hold or reduce your ambition. Situations are fluid and thus response will alter.

Kind regards -unknown

Related posts:

The Truth: An Emotional Affair with The Narcissist Part 1-5

Part Six: A Picture is Worth a Thousand Words

Not My Fault You Started It

White Knight: The Things He Said

White Knight: The Things He Said

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You want me and you feel like you love me because you are drawn to someone like me because of your own needs. You feel like this about me in particular because my dark power arouses you and gives you the feeling which you crave. I am the best of the best and it is entirely understandable that you would want me. I want you also because you have the traits which appeal to me. That is why our kind of relationship is symbiotic. You need me as I need you, because we both provide things that the other needs and I am of such power you cannot help but want me. Add to that the fact I provide you with understanding and insight, you regard me as your White Knight. -Unknown

If it sounds too good to be true, then it is probably a lie.

Related posts:

The Truth: An Emotional Affair with The Narcissist Part 1-5

Part Six: A Picture is Worth a Thousand Words

Not My Fault You Started It

Permission Denied: Closure Granted

Chasing the Narcissist

Run little empath run.

The big bad narcissist is on his way.

Ready to ruin another day.

He is a liar, a cheater, a woman beater.

He will try to steal your soul.

But not if you run

Little empath

Run.

 

 

 

Run little narc run.

The empowered empaths are on the way.

Ready to save another day.

There isn’t any hope for you.

Your identity has been revoked.

After all, you are a joke.

So run little narc

Run.

 

Proud of him

I had planned on posting this when baseball season ended but I lost track of time.

I am so proud of my son. He had an amazing baseball season. He was mentioned in the newspaper several times. I have changed the names to protect his identity.

See below:

Freshman WB worked the first four innings for the victory striking out nine.

Freshman WB pitched 5 2/3 innings for the victory as the MJV squad knocked off the KK in a game called after six innings because of the 10 run rule. ”He pitched phenomenal, ” MJV coach CD said.

At MT, WB pitched six strong innings for the win, allowing just one hit, and the MJV team beat St.H

”Our best defensive game of the year, ” D Said.

WB pitched the final two innings for a close out victory for the MJV.

I am so proud. Last year he was having a difficult time in his life and he turned his life around and I am proud of him.